just to let you know, people in your life will never do anything for you unless there is something in it for them. that's just how the world works. so, if you're, say, working on a halloween costume for a friend who recently came back into your life don't expect them to ever want to talk to you after you're done with their costume...because they're done with you. people are pieces of shit, and nothing more.

on a happier note my trip to west virginia went well. pictures are up on my facebook people...and the halloween party went well too...after i soaked myself in rum that is. rum is good. and yes, its always gone.

Ha, this was me, oh, about 3 and a half years ago. I really don't remember what was happening in this picture, or why i'm so pale, but i found it recently and i think its awesome. There i go with the eyeliner and lipstick again.

In any case, i haven't been posting enough, but i've been very busy...playedr a bunch of games, but nothing really seems to be all that note worthy lately. Its just that it all seems the same, but then again I'm just in a rut so why should i complain? It'll fix itself eventually...things always do. I went to the pool today and then hung out with the sister, that's about all that happened. hung out with her just so i could get out of my own house, which i am in far too much. got back and started messing around in the internet, which is never good for me. it seems like i'm crankier than when, say, i'm detail cleaning my house, which is getting done almost every day now. I've been depressed and that's what i do.

and go to District 9 the movie! and read about the movie district nine that's coming out and all the propoganda surrounding it. even if you only scan everything, it won't be the worst ten minutes you've ever spent in the web. :)

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its amazing how quick i got drunk off of this bottle of coconut rum even though its only 40 proof. guess i'm becoming a lighweight or something. though, after all, i am not all that bad off.

do you ever get the feeling that all of this is completely pointless. about as pointless as this picture. or is that the rum talking? I was also drunk in this picture, as it was my 21st birthday last year. how could i not be? but still, pointless all the same as i had to take it myself.

I am very tired today. It's been a minute since i posted on here last, not for lack of love for newgrounds or anything, just been busy. things have calmed down though.

Went on a blind date...what a disaster. The date itself wasn't bad, but he's shy and wouldn't pick up the phone to tell me that the date we had planned today wasn't going to happen. What a no no. That's the fastest way to piss me off...blowing off plans that had been made for whatever reason and not bothering to inform the other person. That's how it was with Chris right in the end...just didn't want to come and see me for whatever reason...not like what he told me was the truth anyway. That's my love life, or lack thereof.

I have played so many computer games on this sight and others...mainly time management games which i am way into. I just can't seem to stop playing them, one in particular was Airport Mania...for some reason playing that game is just mesmerizing. click click drool kind of mesmerizing.

My brother is in Wewoka for a week to visit his grandmother. His summer school is finally over so his summertime can begin for real now. It's blazing hot here during the day (I hate the 100 degree weather here)...its only nice after dark. But even then its still humid and listless and when you ahve to go anywhere, even sitting in a car, you end up sweating from the tiny bit of excertion you have to do. if my family did not live in oklahoma i never would have come back here. its a sweltering tornado filled hell hole...but they knew that when the moved here. what mooks.

alright, the tired-rant is over now. you can go about your business if you even made it this far.;

Nuff said. been drawing like crazy lately...i guess i've had newgrounds to spur me on. i need to post some of the better stuff...will get to that soon! all that's there right now are doodles.

wow, was it two or three days ago that i complained because there wasn't a place for art...and now there is one! imagine that...

you know what i wonder about this website? If its everything by everone then why can't i upload my artwork on here, as that is my creative outlet? i could upload some of the music i make, but that's more for me than anyone else...so that leaves me kind of out int he cold.

other than that nothing has really been happening. haven't really been playing on games on here....but the ones i have played were good. shame i can't remember what they were. the last one i played was exmortis 2...which was a replay so i could go into the upstairs main bedroom and read the journal again, because i think it was really well done and creates a lot of suspense in the game, and without it it wouldn't be half the game it turned out to be. people ask me sometimes why writing is important when there are so many other things you could be doing...and i think that that is a perfect example. its to draw things out, especially in a dramatic sense, to make them more realistic and to make the reader feel something. as soon as a master that, i shall be famous. look for me out there guys!!

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EDIT: people fucking suck. yes that means you. all of you fuck heads.

games played today.

- Mario Combat Deluxe - seriously, what is it with all of the mario games that appear online? don't they realize they're beating the subject to death while at the same time making games that suck? obviously not... *mumbles and trails off*
- Zodiac Reactor - Actually a fairly interesting game that i may or may not go back too. the advanced setting on this game is insane and makes me doubt my skills too much. fun though.
- Super Mario 63 - see above. I wrote a review that doesn't exactly have my true feelings in it...but it sucked ass. I can't say that in a review so i'll say it here...and again...it sucked ass.
- Stackle - I really didn't like this game. You should play it, and come to this realization as well.
- Armorpicross 2 - OMG! I got addicted to the first one, and didn't realize that a second one was out in the world somewhere! I am sitting at my computer, far too late into the night once again because of this cursed game...i wouldn't change it for anything though. the main excitement about the new and improved version is that you can cross of rows of numbers when you are done with them, taking most of the guesswork out of it so they could make harder puzzles to fry my brain out some more. which might just be why i have such a short fuse tonight, see reply to comment below. it was much worse, but i deleted and tried to be nice when i started over. see how much that worked? lol...whatevs. people can be stupid if they want, but i digress. Play this game. play the first one, play this one. play them multiple times. over and over again. until your eyes run out of your useless head. it will be worth it.

Oh, and the other day i played a game called Little Wheel (should still be on the front page) that was awesome. It has some great artwork and isn't too difficult. didn't really need the walkthrough. Its a point and click, so if you don't like those don't bother, i usually don't either but this one is an exception. wouldn't play it twice, but the style and artwork and music and just overall feel of the game definitely make it woth giving a shot.

Edit over. return to normal life. this message will not self destruct, because this is not inspector gadget you fools. wow...sleeplessness makes me very silly...i don't suppose it shows :)

Well, I've played a ton of games on here lately, most notably the AN escape series etc games...very good. make ya think...but kinda hard. which is the point. I thoroughly enjoyed them. Also played the Carradine hangman game. I don't know what all of the stink is about. yeah, i know how he died and it was sad because he was a great actor and all that...but really? Did any of you know him personally that are bitching, or do you just feel like having something to be all butt hurt about? Screw you guys and your judgemental shit...its ridiculous. Go and cry to someone else before blamming someone's game just because they did something that isn't completely socially acceptable. Bad timing is not the point so shut the fuck up you whiney bitches. If any of you fifteen year old little shits can remember when newgrounds began, which i bet you can't because you weren't off your mothers tit yet, you can remember what it was all about. and it sure wasn't about being socially acceptable. I am normally not the kind of person to go off like this, but i've fucking had it. Its ridiculous, to be so pedantic about something and post the same thing over and over and over again on someone's game just because you want to be the five hundredth person to say that same ridiculously crass thing. Really, telling the game author to die because he has no taste? If anything he has a good sense of humor, and some seriously fast programming skills considered with D Carradine died and all. you ignorant fools, go back to your closets and slit your wrists because no one gives a shit about you or your opinions. I know that i'll get a lot of terrible comments about this blog, and that'll just prove my point, so fire away and get it over with you pathetic dweebs. you make me, and everyone like me, sick.

sorry. just had to do that.

I forgot to post these the other day...

- Meeblings 2 - I need to go and play meeblings 1, because this game rocked my socks off!!!
- Bango - Its an interesting idea, and i played it all the way through...but there was something lacking from it that i can't quite put my finger on.
- Pirate Defense - I don't know if its because i'm under too much stress lately and my brain isn't working right or what, but it was far too complicated for me to handle when i played it...i think i'll just have to go back to it later.
- Survival Lab - mindless games are good for me right now, so this really hit the spot!
- Hedhog Launch - I found the hedgehog hard to control and it really pissed me off... but it was a good game and well designed.

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Also played today...
- Blocksquad - I don't know if i liked this game. i'm just not in the mood for anything.
- Gemcraft 0 - I really liked this game. I didn't expect it to be a tower defense game, but i really liked the style of it. It kind of reminded me of Mushroom Tower Defense, because of the different powers the crystals could have if mixed together.
- Meeblings - I really enjoyed meeblings 2 and the first one was no different. just easier...which is both good and bad.
- Infect. Evolve. Repeat. - I'd played this before but hadn't realized it. I am a big fan of any game that encourages us to destroy the human race.
- Pandemic II - I have always really liked this game and keep going back to visit it. YAY!!

This has been the weekend from hell...boyfriend breaks up with me...but its only a break. He just needs some time to figure his stuff out. Or whatever. I have high hopes, but i'm suer that Iw ll get crushed, because that it always what happens when i have high expectations.

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I had the best friday night that i can remember last night. It rocked. My boyfriend took me to a club to two-step. Well, i had never two stepped before so he was kind enough to show me how to do it. he's so sweet. He was doing line dances and all kinds of things and i was getting such a big kick out it. it rocked. we had a few beers and danced ourselves silly and got a lot of funny looks and it didn't matter! I love when i'm having so much fun that people can't bring me down no matter what they do. we both really needed to go and have a good time, especially since his sister is still MIA. We needed to cut loose and de-stress...and it worked.

And super especially since my little brother's birthday was today (he's eight) and his family reunion was today. And we are both busy all day tomorrow with family things, but at least we'll meet up at my brother's party and maybe go "relax" afterwards...lol. should be a good night ;)

In any case, this is my newgrounds activity for the day.

- Toybox - i didn't get to play very far into the game because i didn't have time, but what i saw i liked. I am all about those morbid games that make me cringe every once in a while. like exmortis 2...just perfection. I will definitely revisit this game and try to figure out that alternate ending everyone is talking about.
- Choose your 2012 - I am intrigued by the idea that the world will end in 2012...so me being the one to make it happen is definitely a plus in my life. I liked the graphics and how all of the places on earth were kind of mashed together the way they were. i liked the weapons...the only problem i had with it was the length of the game, and how when you went back into it you have to get all the weapons all over again. it made some of the acheivements hard ... to...well...achieve. but i guess that was the point. i favorited it.
- ArmorPicross - I had way too much fun with this game. I actually got off the phone with my bf to be able to focus on it a little better...woops i still need to call him back.
- 360 supreme catcher - pitiful. didn't like the game. I reviewed otherwise...but now that i think about it it makes poop look good. just sad sad sad. i've programmed better games in my sleep...seriously.
- rockin 2 fame - i regret ever hearing the name of this game...it was awful...and you couldn't tell if you were hitting the notes or not. just sad.

anyway, thats me for the day. wish me luck cooking my brains out and being able to handle way too many kids at once and not break anything...seriously...i have way too many nicknacks in my house. i need the luck just to be able to get up int he morning when the alarm goes off....i'm never going to hear that shit.

toodles!
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